Rubble and Faith

Collage art © Valentina Cozzi. All rights reserved.

In this ragged maze of sundered blocks called Gaza, the promise of a clean “hero’s journey”—departure, crisis, return—feels like an echo from books unread. Dust, hunger, war overshadow any notion of any arc, and grief holds a gravity no formula can explain. Still they endure and endure and endure. That is the first truth in these alleyways and broken rooftops: no one here sets out to be a hero. They simply find themselves in a story that no longer belongs to them.

You say there must be a call to adventure. You say a mentor should appear. You say there will be a triumph at the end. I say loss saturates everything. I say sorrow returns each dusk. Edges of hope slip through trembling fingers, I say. Grief is not a single note played once; it is a dirge repeating under every footstep, every donkey-drawn cart rattling over cratered roads, and in each child whimpering when the power slumps them into darkness.

She was the lantern in their gloom, the warm shawl in their winter, the voice reading verse upon verse of solace late into the night. That mother’s constancy outshines any breed of darkness. Huddled in a dim corner, she wraps her son’s hairpin-narrow shoulders in a frayed blanket, mouth moving with Quranic recitations. This is no grand departure—only relentless survival.

In the hush after an explosion, they wait, they gasp, they pray. One moment a father’s voice echoes in the courtyard, coaxing the donkey forward, the next the smoke thickens and the donkey is braying, the father nowhere to be found. If grief were a vocabulary, it would have no ending. If heartbreak were a map, it would lead to more heartbreak.

Scholarship once lauded the image of Odysseus’s dog, Argos, wagging a frail tail at his master’s disguised return in a moment of pure recognition. In Gaza, the parallels to epic tradition exist only in that each explosion marks a crossing into some underworld from which hearts may never return. Medea’s grief, that ancient mythology of betrayal and the ruinous thirst for vengeance, surfaces in quiet corners, here, when a family loses so much that only fury can fill the vacuum. The orchard gone, the laughter gone, all naive belief in fairness gone.

They walk and they wonder and they wait. Yet even all that halts when they must bury their neighbors or rummage through the rubble for photo albums. Each day feels more like a descent into history’s deeper tunnels, unearthing not only the remnants of older conquests—Canaanites, Egyptians, Philistines—but also the lost illusions of childhood. In the morning, bent figures realize that the fabled, cyclical journey doesn’t always circle back. Sometimes it leads to a threshold from which home is no more than a memory, a handful of keys, a date scrawled on a shrapnel-scarred paper.

Yes, they see war. Yes, they feel hunger. Too, they wrestle with despair. The father in the narrow street has no illusions left, only the donkey that labors under the weight of salvaged blankets and his sobs. You say there is a pattern in this. You say each departure moves the plot forward. You call the return imminent. I say the framework breaks under real heartbreak. I say empty doorframes speak louder than any bookish principle. I say grief devours formula.

But let us not forget the pulse of faith that remains. In a battered mosque near the sea, worshippers gather to recite Surah Ar-Rahman, hoping for mercy in the silence between strikes. A girl clutches her mother’s hand, stands with eyes wide, heart wide, faith wide. In that moment it is not the promise of triumph that sustains them; it is the flicker of connection, the knowledge that in the tangle of loss there can still be abiding love.

To read these scenes through the lens of a neat monomyth is to miss the intimate gestures that define humanity: a neighbor pressing a crust of bread into a child’s hand; a father’s pat on the donkey’s flank; a poet scribbling lines about longing and exile on torn cardboard. In such wonders, there is no simple triumphant return. Instead, there is survival, and there is grief, and alongside these things, the unshakable will to remember.

We come to see that the “hero’s journey” remains eclipsed by a mightier force: a mother’s despair, a father’s wordless lament, a child’s search for home. No neat resolution or parted sea, no final victory—only continuous heartbreak matched by an equally persistent faith. Because in Gaza, heartbreak is cyclical, and faith is cyclical, and both swirl the way dust swirls in air, neither feasible to hold, always present in each breath.

Elina Kumra is a writer on Medium and author of Ash and Olive and Extant: Palestinian Poetry, 344 pages of poems and artwork available on Amazon. Net proceeds go to Gaza.

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