Cold April day. Apple blossoms wither before coming into fruit.
Mother sits beside me with her pearl-lucent flesh,
veins, celadon, some deepening into ash-purple.
Legs in tremor. Back slumped. On her way.
***
Once, mother and I were blue as a mouth that swallows the sea.
We survived the dearth of bread and light, the ghosts of fathers
and brothers behind every wall panting—the half-dead centaurs.
We bled at the altar of yes. Like prophets, years emerged
with their revelations a humming of the moon,
a throbbing of Gospel—
carry on,
carry on,
carry on.
We met God perching at the crown of the Persian cypress.
We did not cast a pebble, nor sling a rock. We carried on.
And last year, when mother was dying less and I, living
more, we lost our feet to the Pacific Ocean. Hand in hand.
Thick stalks of seaweed branched toward us, looped
around our shins with their knobby arms, reeled away
in the swish of the backwash. Our skin, forever salted.
Sea Swallowers

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